Sunday, May 31, 2009

Kickin' Ass. Takin' Names.

So I finally received the volunteer master list from Murphreesboro. I had requested it so that I could get in touch with people who have helped us in the past. I wanted, not just to initiate contact, but to maintain contact. There are nearly two hundred volunteers here who, as I understand it, are hardly ever called upon for anything. Chuck, a volunteer here in Tullahoma who seems to know just about everything Red Cross, says that "We only get about two fire calls a year, if that. A lot of people show up once and we never hear from them again." My hope is to keep in touch with these people, to keep them engaged so that, God forbid, the unthinkable happens, we have people ready to work.

So I drafted an email that would also double as a rough phone script. After entering over a hundred email addresses, and hitting the send button, I found out the hard way that the list needs to be scrubbed and updated. At least a dozen email addresses were outdated or simply inaccurate. I have received two responses. One affirmative. Then, there were also the sixty or so people for whom we had no email address. I hate to think that this week I will learn how many phone numbers are inaccurate or the volunteers who no longer have that phone line.

I was awakened Friday morning with a text message from my CEO up in Murphreesboro: "Action item for you. Go to storage unit and inventory all disaster supplies."

After a brief stop at the office to check my email, I headed down to the shed yard in Estill Springs. And there I sat with a clip board, counting just about everything: X number of cots; Y number of blankets; Z number of cleanup kits. I have to say that I'm not a big fan of plopping my can on a cooler chest for a day, leaning over a clip board and scratching down figures on a legal pad. But the truth is that I feel more immersed and better prepared for what may lie ahead. I have a greater degree of ownership over what's happening.

I stopped by Jack's after work a couple of nights this week for a beer. I keep finding myself talking to one Troy McFarland. A well-dressed country boy in his early forties. The kind of guy who looks like he was the President of his high school class and carries himself like he used to get away with murder because of it. Troy and I exchange jokes, stories, and experiences. But he had half the bar's attention, stumping all including the staff with a bar trick. It's called "The Field Goal." Many thought it was impossible. After twenty minutes, I slapped the bar and called out. I got it! All gathered 'round and watched as I applied a solution so simple, it's difficult to believe none of us saw it sooner. "That's part of the trick," Troy said.

Yesterday, I finally took the time to restore the songs from my Ipod to my Itunes folder on my new laptop. I had called Apple and spoken with a guy, asking him "If I hook up my Ipod to my laptop, and just sync it, will the songs be transferred from my Ipod, or will it be wiped clean." The man told me it would be wiped clean. "Look. This is a simple data transfer. There must be some way to get this done."

He was specific in how he chose his words. "There's no process that Apple operates that can perform this task."

"So pretend you're not an Apple employee for a minute," I said. "What would you do if you were in my position?" He told me to google Itunes music recovery, which I did. I downloaded a recovery program for ten dollars and ran it. After some frustration and a little facebook chat help from my old CHA friend, John "Tank" Kozemple, I was able to complete the process and listen to something besides the radio.

I then went to Fast Jack's on Lincoln for a beer and a quesadilla around 5pm. I happened to sit next to a woman who used to work for my old company, CSC. For some reason, she seemed impressed with the fact that I worked in Falls Church. After exchanging a few names of people we knew inside the company, the fellow on the other side of her, Larry, bought me a beer. I had no idea why and then it hit me like a fastball to the face. He was thanking me for distracting this woman from being a pain in his ass.

This woman would not shut up! The sheer volume of nonsensical, uninformed, unsolicited bullshit that spewed forth from this woman's mouth would drive Dr. Phil to drugs. Her job! Her marital history! Her political opinions! Her cats! I endured it for a bit, thinking of it as a listening exercise, recalling the lesson of Lyndon Johnson. Read people. Watch their eyes. Watch their hands. Listen to them. Don't just listen to what they're saying - listen to what they're not saying. The most important thing a person has to say is the thing they're not telling you. I excused myself to use the mens room in the other bar, where half the staff lamented my torturous experience. Apparently, this woman has pestered people straight out of the bar on many occasions. I finished my beer and returned to find another empty stool, a few slots away.

I walked straight up to the man sitting there, patting him on the shoulder. "How's it goin' there, buddy?" An older fella. Mid sixties. His name was Eddie Nieves, aa Puerto Rican. Needless to say, I jumped at the chance to brush up on some Spanish. Needless to say I spoke with my hands a lot. Needless to say, I was trying to show off. Eddie and I spoke for an hour on various topics. He did two shots of Cuervo and hit the road.

Then I met up with Toshi, who introduced me to the Starlite Lounge, located outside of the downtown area, over toward the Air Base. Toshi knew the manager. We got in with no cover. He introduced me to the band. (Magnolia. They rock!) I saw a lot of familiar faces who welcomed me at their table, and who insisted on sharing their whiskey and beer. "Brian! What's goin' on man! Want some Jack? Sit down and meet everybody! Hang out with us for a while!"

I'll decline to go into too much detail on the evening. No, it's not for lack of memory, smart asses. But the important thing was that, at the end of the night, as I walked into my apartment, it felt like I had not only gotten to know a few of the locals, but, as I had been instructed to attempt, I felt like they had gotten to know me, to a degree. People were asking for my phone number, giving me theirs, saying "We gotta hang out!"

I've felt welcome since my arrival here. But now, I feel more than that. I feel more of a part of this place. I feel it becoming more of a part of me.

--
Swallow it down, what a jagged little pill
It feels so good swimming in your stomach
Wait until the dust settles

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

The Lawrence Welk of Southern Barbecue

Ladies and gentlemen... I am humbled. And I'm stuffed. I'm stuffed with humility.

I don't know if it's all southern barbecues, or just Tennessee, or just the one that I went to... But DAMN!

I want to thank Monica Smith and all her friends for their hospitality, generosity, and culinary skill. The cookout that I attended on Memorial Day was splendid. Ribs and wings cooked so amazingly that the meat fell right off the bone and melted in your mouth. Brats and hot dogs that were a juicy, savory flavor explosion with every bite. Potato salad, pasta salad, chips, brownies, cookies, beer, soda, and enough margaritas to sink the Mexican navy.

The weather cooperated for the most part. A respectable rain showed up for about five minutes and then ran away. The sun was out most of the day, and a steady, gentle, cool breeze blew through the tents. The tables were aligned end-to-end. The children played on their toy bikes.

There were even two tiny, plastic lawn mowers being pushed around. When the mowers began to blow bubbles, Tim, a bearded man of his early forties, turned his head and his eyes widened. "I may be crazy, but I thought I just saw bubbles comin' outta that there lawn mower."

"You never seen that before," I said? "Oh yeah, all lawn mowers do that nowadays."

Tim was shocked. "That there's like the Lawrence Welk of lawn mowers," he exclaimed in his oaked, Tennessee accent. I began to laugh at the random association. Tim saw that he had struck a chord with me and proceeded to push it a bit further. And when this southern man went into his Lawrence Welk impression, I dubbed over and clenched my gut in breathless hysteria. Tim pinched his voice up into the back of his throat and nasal cavity, saying "Tank you, tank you. Vee heff had a vunderful time herr diss evening. But zih grass is now short, our feet are tired, zee chicken vings heff all been eaten, unt zee lawn mawer is all out of sawp. So vee vill see you again soon. But for now, good night, sleep tight, auf wiedersein."

It wasn't just the fact that the impression was unexpected, but that his impression was nearly flawless - the voice, the accent, and the content . I am a big fan of mimicry. As many of you know, I consider myself to be something of an artist in the field. And this guy was damn good.

When I started breathing again, Tim returned to his native speech. "Now, c'n you imagine what that was like back then? That must 'a been a damn good time. Th' Lawrence Welk show. That ma'an could play s'm damn good music. Had a lot a talent on that show. Yes, sir. That there was music and entertainment from a real simple time."

"Simple time," I thought to myself. I looked around. You know what I saw? Sun. Shade. Delicious food. Cold drinks. Fun people.

A simply wonderful Memorial Day. My heartfelt thanks for such graciousness. "Tank you, tank you."

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Writing Assignment

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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Questions, Answers. Reflexes, Hesitations.

The first full day with no hand holding is in the books. I find myself constantly checking myself.

In any given moment, I feel myself straining to focus on my stated objectives of building and sustaining the necessary systems and infrastructure for disaster preparation and response, while shutting out the distractions, the gravy, of all the Red Cross courses. Then I remember that I’m not nearly as smart as I think I am. While the primary means of reaching the goals may be an exercise in politics, the shaping of the goals themselves depend on that requisite experience and coursework.

I also find myself ready to hop out of my desk chair and into my car, to explore every acre of the region, to find an answer to every question as soon as it is asked. But no. Instead, I recall the hard-learned lessons from my mentors at CSC: Respect the schedule. Sustainable progress, rightly, takes considerable time to achieve. Sometimes, you just have to wait. But use that time waiting to effectively prepare, to get the help you need. The moment will soon come when you can wait no longer; when action is required. Act, then, to your fullest potential.

So far, I am very impressed with all of the Red Cross staff, here in the Heart of Tennessee chapter -- particularly with the leadership of our CEO, Greg King. All have done a great job of making me feel welcome and providing me with everything that I need to do my job. Greg has already met with several local leaders who, according to him, whish to meet and have discussions with me. I am excited to learn from these people and to do whatever I can to help. They include, I am told, representatives from the Air Force, the Department of Corrections, the Chamber of Commerce, et al.

I have spent a fair amount of time today developing questions to ask when I finally do meet these people. For every agency, organization, and community I need answers to the following: What is our history? What is our status? What is our potential? How do we achieve it? How do we sustain it?

And finally, the ultimate question: Why?

The answer? Ask Bob Dylan:
--
You may be an ambassador to England or France,
You may like to gamble, you might like to dance,
You may be the heavyweight champion of the world,
You may be a socialite with a long string of pearls
--
But you're gonna have to serve somebody, yes indeed
You're gonna have to serve somebody,
Well, it may be the devil or it may be the Lord
But you're gonna have to serve somebody.

Monday, May 18, 2009

A Fisher of Men and the Economics of Bad Ass

Dawn came early this morning. I was up at ten minutes to six and the light already shone brightly into my window. Damn, that sun’s kinda high for as early as it is. At six fifteen on I was on the road. At 8 am, I was in my seat at the Red Cross office in Nashville.

I spent the day learning about the history of the Red Cross and getting a general overview of the kind of work that I’ll be doing; specifically, the processes and elements of disaster relief operations. I knew that I’d be preparing for disasters. But what I learned was the resulting reality toward which my work would be focused.

Tomorrow morning, I’ll be setting foot in the Tullahoma office for the first time. I can’t adequately describe the excitement I have to finally begin this work, for the rubber to meet the road. I have much to learn about my Counties of Moore, Franklin, and Coffee, though I already have a few ideas. It’s all about utilizing resources, and building relationships. I’ve taken it upon myself to get out and do a fair amount of exploring.

I found the Normandy Dam yesterday, appropriately so named as it serves to contain Lake Normandy. I hiked around briefly, up and down stream, and around the lake. People all over were fishing. Happening upon one man who seemed as if he had fished the same spot every Sunday for thirty years, I asked him “They bitin’?”

“They’re bitin’ alright. But they’re swallowin’ the hook.”

“What are you using?”

“Just some worm,” he responded. “Got it at the shop right up the road.” He also told me where I could buy a fishing license. Another place to kill a weekend. I’m makin’ out just fine.

The whole country outside of Tullahoma is beautiful. Lots of farmland. No crops that I could see, but plenty of cows, a few goats, sheep, and a couple of horses. A few times, I saw Peacocks strutting about in front yards. What the hell? I wonder what those are for.

After returning from the dam, it was still fairly early in the afternoon. I crossed right through town and into neighboring Moore County; part of my territory, a dry county (serves no alcohol), and (ironically) home of the Jack Daniels Distillery in Lynchburg. Needless to say Jack Daniels is the center of the Lynchburg economy. It’s a cute little town with an old courthouse in the center of the square. But for being a cute little town, it’s certainly built on a foundation of bad ass. The square is populated with shops that seem to sell nothing but Jack Daniels memorabilia, motorcycle hardware and accessories, leather goods, and food. Whiskey, choppers, and barbecue. That’s all. And aside from a few cosmetic and technological updates, the town square looks like it was frozen in time at the turn of the twentieth century… No WalMart. No McDonalds. No 7-11.
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Well life on the farm is kinda laid back
Aint much an old country boy like me cant hack
Its early to rise, early in the sack
Thank God Im a country boy
--
Well a simple kinda life never did me no harm
A raisin me a family and workin on a farm
My days are all filled with an easy country charm
Thank God Im a country boy

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Up Down South

I left Atlanta just after 1pm on Friday. I made it to Tullahoma by 4pm CST. (Marion County, TN and westward are on Central Time. That includes Tullahoma. That includes me.) Once I crossed into the Volunteer State, the thunderstorms began. Five to thirty minutes on, one to two hours off for the remainder of the day and well into the evening.

Upon unloading my car, I made a frustrating discovery. My laptop was not among my belongings. I checked back several times with the wonderful staff of the Crowne Plaza Perimeter NW of Atlanta, GA (and my gratitude is genuine), to see if it had been found or turned in, the final word came with a phone call I made before getting in the shower, around 10:30. “No, Mister Toll. I’m sorry but we still haven’t found it.” Gone, baby. Gone.

My cell phone charger was in the bag. I had already bought a new one at the local Radio Shack yesterday. After all, I was low on juice, and if my phone, my last link to the information that would get me safely though the acclimation process was dead, I was totally screwed. Fortunately, I had the forethought to ask the clerk if there was a Best Buy around. The nearest one was in Murphreesboro.

After my shower yesterday morning, I hopped on I-24 -- Destination: Murphreesboro. I stopped at a music store, which I happened upon, to buy an electric tuner for my guitar; an item of which I happened to be in need. The gents behind the counter worry happy to direct me to Best Buy when I completed the purchase.

So this new Toshiba is an update of my last one. New features include a built-in webcam, Windows Vista (which isn’t nearly as evil as it is made out to be), and the ability to burn DVDs. I also bought and installed Office, so now I can write. Most of my important files, also by way of good fortune and forethought, have either been backed up on a flash drive, or they are stored as attachments in my email box.

On my way back from Murphreesboro, I pulled off of TN-55 when I saw a sign that said “TVA NORMANDY DAM.” I decided to go on a bit of an adventure. I never found the dam. It seems some signs are missing. But I did find the river, though I don’t know which one. (I’d use Google Maps, but I lack the internet access at this time.) I got out in a dirt / gravel parking area on the side of the road. There were a couple of trails through the woods, but I also saw a concrete staircase which I soon found led to a steel footbridge – a walkway attached to the side of the bridge. I walked about a quarter of the way out, just enough to see around the trees. A small fishing boat with an outboard motor cut through the black water, slowly making its way up the river. Below me, I heard splashing and voices. Looking down through the grates, I saw some high school aged kids swimming. This looks like an apt place to cool off when the heat gets overly oppressive.

In other news, I found a barber shop and got my first haircut in Tullahoma. In the parking lot of the barbershop was a young lady, no older than twenty years of age. Blonde hair, freckles, short sleeves rolled up to the shoulder to even out a farmer’s tan. Farmer’s burn. She had a mini yard sale set up on and around her car.

Leaning against the hood on the passenger side was a seven-foot fishing pole with a new reel, already spooled with new line. There was even a hook already rigged on the lead, with three rounds of split-shot. She was even kind enough to tell me where I could find a good bait shop and a good spot to cast. “I know all about the fishin’ ‘round here,” she proudly began in her South Appalachian accent. “There’s a lake not far from here, a few miles down the road. You c’n cast from the shore if you ain’t got a boat. And they keep it well-stocked. You c’n catch yourself some nice cat fish in there.”

I asked her what she recommended for bate. “Depends whatchu wanna catch, Ah s’pose. But down at the bait shop, right next to the bowlin’ alley, you cn’ git anythang you need. They got worms, minnows, crickets.”

Suffice it to say that the past few days have had their ups and downs. It hasn't all been gravy. But I'm survivin'. It’s now Sunday morning and I’m about to head out to find a free wireless signal to glob off of, so I can publish this posting, check my email, et cetera.

This selection is from Hank Williams Jr., aka “Bocephus.”
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Because you can’t starve us out
And you cant makes us run
Cause one-of- ‘em old boys raisin ole shotgun
And we say grace and we say Ma’am
And if you ain’t into that we don’t give a damn
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We came from the West Virginia coalmines
And the Rocky Mountains and the and the western skies
And we can skin a buck; we can run a trot-line
And a country boy can survive
Country folks can survive

(Uploaded via the WiFi at McDonalds. Two birds. One stone.)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

The End Of The Beginning

"We've all come here from all over the country, from all walks of life. For the past couple of days, we've sat in this room, voiced our opinions strongly, and we've challenged each other. With all of the determination between us, the fact that we're all still standing is a testament to the great things that we'll accomplish when we get to Tennessee and get to work. It's been a pleasure getting to know you all, and I thank you."

As we stood in a circle in the middle of our meeting room on the lobby level of the Crowne Plaza, we each took a few moments to briefly express our thoughts. Those were mine.

Certificates recognizing our completion of AmeriCorps Pre-Service Orientation were handed out, and applause was given after the announcement of each name. A half-dozen or so group photos were snapped. And then, we left the room.

Many have left the hotel for the evening, seeking some excitement while in Atlanta. I've stayed back to relax and get squared away.

Tomorrow will be a short day -- finished at one o'clock in the afternoon. The morning will consist of a workshop on civil rights, and one on building and maintaining relationships. In the fifteen minutes before hopping in my car and driving off to a year of service in the Volunteer State, this orientation will culminate with a brief ceremony in which I'll stand tall among my fellow volunteers, raise my right hand, and take the oath which countless Americans have taken before me:

"I do solemnly swear that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; that I take this obligation freely, without any mental reservation or purpose of evasion; and that I will well and faithfully discharge the duties of the office on which I am about to enter. So help me God.”

I have never known so high an honor.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Send In The Fife And Drum

This will probably be the only time I publish consecutive posts so close together. But what the hell. If the political pros can do it on election day, live from Tryst, and get coverage on CNN, then I can do it from here and now.

I am now a registered volunteer -- a real, live nephew of my Uncle Sam. I've bought a copy of the New York Times in the gift shop, and while reading it, observed the mass arrival of my colleagues. I feel most fortunate to be here to witness something that I consider to be truly extraordinary.

Men and women of all races and backgrounds, of all age groups - from recent college graduates, to senior citizens. And I hate to bring politics into this, but the pattern is undeniable; that many seem to be from "blue" states (New York, New Jersey, Maryland, DC, Pennsylvania, Massachusetts, California, Colorado, - as I've overheard.)

The last memorable time in history that a blue army invaded Atlanta, they were led by William Tecumseh Sherman. They came to burn "Old Dixie" down.

We have come to build.


I'm a Yankee Doodle Dandy
A Yankee Doodle do or die
A real live nephew of my Uncle Sam
Born on the Fourth of July

By the Time I Finish Writing This

By the time I finish writing this post, registration will have begun for my AmeriCorps pre-service orientation. Anxious. Nervous. Excited.

I slept like a king last night (after rambling on and on in the post I wrote below). I woke up at a decent hour and checked out. Five seconds later, I checked back in -- this time, as a participant in the VISTA (Volunteer In Service to America) program. I had a sandwich in the restaurant and a Diet Coke. This Diet Coke, from the fountain - unlike last night's - tasted just fine. I read USA Today. I'm trying to keep my mind occupied.

Right now, I'm sitting at a coffee table in the lobby. There's almost no activity here. I've seen them setting up the registration area in the ballroom down the hall. I'm waiting for the time to go over and sign in, but I still have several minutes - and actually a few hours after that - and I don't want to be that guy.

I have all the forms that I need with me. My car survived the first night in the parking lot. (Knock wood.) I've seen the news. I'm not hungry. I'm not tired. My book is upstairs. I think I'll tear into it after I get signed in. But for right now, I'm just waiting. Waiting. Killing time.

One year of national service starts any minute now. I jumped through a whole lot of hoops to get here.

I'm locked in the blocks, waiting on the starter's gun. I feel like I'm in a staring contest with my own damn reflection.

I could murder a Diet Coke right now. Dwelling on Pink Floyd:

Digging away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in and of that way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for some one or something to show you the way.

Monday, May 11, 2009

10 Days, 12 Hours 48 Minutes, and 783 Miles Later

"Well hello there. My, it's been a long, long time. And how am I doin'? Well I guess that I'm doin' fine."

I spent my last week in Philly packing up, organizing... and chillin'. I had dinner and drinks with my cousins, Kate and John, in Center City. I attended the alumni reception at CHA and hung out with some old friends. I spent time with my parents. And then, I packed up my life and loaded into the back of a Nissan Xterra, and hit the road to DC where I joined mother, sister and company for Mother's Day weekend.

At Mother's Day dinner in Alexandria. I was quite introspective. Long highway to drive tomorrow. What's at the other end of it? After dinner I sensed myself getting frustrated. We all took a brief stroll down by the Potomac and looked out over the River. In hindsight, I believe that the sentimentality of the moment brought about such emotions in me that I shut myself off. I needed not to feel them or I would have cried. And if I cried, Mom would have cried. Can't have that. Next thing you know, Abigail will be crying and I definitely can't have that.

I drove back to Andi and David's place, Gary riding shotgun, stopping at a couple of plays to get gas. Why a couple of places? Because the first two places either had broken pump handles on the available pumps, or nobody came to the pay window because the cashier was probably in the backroom, playing switch. I felt myself getting antsy.

Back in Crystal City, it was handshakes for David and Gary. Hugs and kisses for Andi and Mom. Andrea told me "Work hard. Do your government and your country proud. Represent them well."

Mom hugged me tightly for a moment, kissed me on the cheek. She pulled back with a couple of tears glistening on the skin under her eyes. "Be careful," she said. Guess you can't prevent the inevitable. Well, at least I delayed.

Halfway down the hall, the apartment door re-opened behind me. It was Andrea. "Call us when you get there."

I drove up to Rockville to Ben and Louise's place. My "brotha from anotha motha" and his wife, "my sista from anothe mista," were waiting for me. We talked awhile in their living room. I poured myself a Jack and Coke. After two episodes of Deadliest Catch on Discovery, and sometime into Justin Timberlake's third hosting of Saturday Night Live (DVR'd), Ben and Louise fell asleep on the couch at the same time, curled up like a couple of lion. Louise woke after a short time, probably from the unusually raucous uproar of laughter from the SNL studio audience as they reacted to a music video -- the sequel to the notorious "D**k In a Box." Louise shook Ben. He snored. After two drop kicks and a flying elbow from the ottoman, Ben stirred and awoke to hear his wife say "Honey let's go to bed." I watched TV for awhile then lied down to sleep around 1 am.

This morning, my cell phone alarm went off on-time, at six fifteen. After I reset the alarm for seven fifteen, it then went off on-time, yet again. Both times, Ben had heard the alarm. Both times, he came out to make sure he said goodbye before leaving. The second time, he sat in the living room while I showered upstairs, and put back on the same shirt and slacks I had been wearing the night before. Grabbed my back packs. A bear hug from my best friend and I was on the road again. "Drive carefully," he called after me. Out the door and out of Rockville at seven forty five am.

I drove the Washington Beltway to 95 south. I stayed on 95 through Richmond, then picked up 85 south. Stopped for breakfast at a WaWa around Manassas. Stopped for gas a couple of times. I also stopped twice for half-hour naps. Once after breakfast and once about two hours after the lunch I had somewhere around Greenville, SC. I stayed on 85 and rode that bastard all the way into Georgia. Within a few miles of Atlanta, I realized something. This is the widest damn highway I've ever seen in my life! Five lanes! Plus an HOV lane! Plus two lanes at each ramp! District of Columbia, eat your heart out!

Checked in at the Crowne Plaza - Atlanta Perimeter just before 8 pm. I made my phone calls, watched the news, and then had a club sandwich and a Diet Coke at the lobby bar. Both the soda, which was canned, and the Yuengling I had after dinner, which was bottled, tasted watered down. This is what they tasted like in Tennessee, too. What is this, a southern thing? It can't be. I walked cross the street and the Diet Coke I bought in a 2-liter tastes fine!

And, as Colonel Sanders said "This is now now." Room 401. I'm sitting at the desk, in a wonderful, black leather swivel chair.

Sorry this post hasn't been more exciting or thought-provoking. Try back again soon. It's a quarter after midnight now, and I still have my boots on. So now I'll conclude this post, as I opened it, once again, with a few words from Willie Nelson:

You can't make a record if you ain't got nothin' to say
You can't make a record if you ain't got nothin' to say
You can't play music if you don't know nothin' to play
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Shotgun Willie sits around in his underwear
Bitin' a bullet, pullin' out all of his hair
Shotgun Willie has got all of his family there

Friday, May 1, 2009

To All The Girls I've Loved Before

A person can only pick up and move so many times in so many years. Otherwise, the relationships that they've formed over the years fade away into oblivion. Sometimes that's a good thing. Sometimes - not so much. For if our memories, our relationships, all the things that make us who we are keep getting left behind like the smoldering ashes of a nomad's camp fire, then where do we belong? Everywhere? Nowhere?

When I first moved to the DC area in the summer of 2002, I had yet to really come out of my shell. I was, to a certain degree, socially inept; not really good at meeting people or opening myself up. The fact that I was fairly isolated didn't help, either. I lived alone, in a small efficiency, on the top floor of a high-rise, on the outskirts of Alexandria, VA - the section known as Landmark. I was right next to a shopping mall, a couple of strip malls, and the interstate. Not a whole lot going on. Not much of a social scene. That was the first time around.

The second time around, in 2005, it was a whole new ballgame. I lived in Adams Morgan - DC's answer to the French Quarter. One long strip of bars, clubs, restaurants, etc. Anything and everything I wanted was right within walking distance. Unlike my living situation in Landmark, this environment would make it difficult for any person to remain introverted or isolated. The area provided me ample opportunity to meet women - and in the oddest of places. The local reggae bar, the Diner, the metro, in various restaurants, and on any given sidewalk while out for an evening stroll.

Now, looking forward to life in a rural, small town, I feel a spot of "Footloose Syndrome" coming on. A guy from the big city, lacking only the leather tie and the David Bowie spiked hair. What relationship(s) if any may await me, I haven't a clue. Perhaps it'll all start with a cliche' glance across a dim room from the farmer's daughter, as the bad strikes up "The Tennessee Waltz." Maybe I'll be totally alone. Time will tell.

But before that happens, I'd like to state for posterity that the past few years have introduced me to some pretty amazing women. They all know who they are. Our time has been filled with poetry, music, theatre, long walks, riverside picnics, slow dances, hard laughter, warm smiles, and soft kisses. Despite the fact that I'll be moving forward with life and taking advantage of a great opportunity, it saddens me to know that I'll be leaving the source of such happiness behind. (Or will I?) These times have been the key that unlocked my soul's cage door.

There are always song lyrics that are well-suited to my thoughts. They are comparable, if not inspirational. Perhaps I'll do it for every post. This time, I'll borrow a couple of verses from Willie Nelson:
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To all the girls I've loved before
Who travelled in and out my door
I'm glad they came along
I dedicate this song
To all the girls I've loved before
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To all the girls I once caressed
And may I say I've held the best
For helping me to grow
I owe a lot I know
To all the girls I've loved before
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The winds of change are always blowing
And every time I try to stay
The winds of change continue blowing
And they just carry me away
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